i will wait for you

It is obvious that the night no
longer delivers like it used to.
You stare hopelessly into my eyes. 
You do not have to say the words. 
The only thought will make me feel safe
is the hope that you will not be petrified.  I
will make it by pulling myself.  I
am worried that you will wander
and lose yourself.

She begs me
to not to go.
What is to hold when the love
asks
but
it takes two to tango ?
I can go deep
but how far is too deep ?
I thought about many times
about what would go down.
I have thought about the times
when you are alone, waiting for me.
The thought of me not being near
to kiss you goodnight
sends quiver down your back.  Make
your hair stand
when I do return, you will be. 
Set up by anticipation, you could
not keep
the excitement to yourself.
Run and jump up to me.  And tell me
that you have missed me and you
have waited for me.
I will say
I know
I know. I have missed you too. 

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i took some time to think about what it must be like to love somebody

stand by me darling
altho things may seem going fast.
i go crazy when youre not
next to me.

deceive or believe
apparition of moving
lights doing the semaphore.

as long as youre next to me,
ill keep you satisfied
even that would require me
to crumble down a mountain
or
two.

trip

away away you went with them.  pull the trigger for some thrill, time will stand still.  pretty polka dots on your dress each representing how miserable you are.  nobody has told you how remarkably sad you must be.  youre one of those who does what you please and you ache when you cant have it your way.  people should be more understanding you cried.  but it is difficult for the most understanding person to understand when you dont tell him/her what youre feeling inside. 

awy away to the wall.  bang bang the blood on your palm.  and you laughed and laughed.

why

Children ask why about things.  Adults answer them due to children are not capable of knowing otherwise.  Adults ask why about reasons.  Some adults may know more than some adults. 
I ask why about why.

speak

wrong time
busy time
later time
early time.
share
something you have trouble with.

The small things and the big things.  The cost and the how are different, in the end, they are just one thing taking up space in our lives. 

You're a child, grow up.  She said.
To grow up is to know the causes and the consequences.  To think and communicate before doing to prevent mistakes.
To have a young mind is choosing to know there is no such thing and be a mischief.  Some might even call it living life to the fullest. 
Is it too much to ask to be both at the same time?  

I don't want to do a thing today
Alright
I mean, I don't want to do a thing today. Not a single thing!
Alright
I don't think you're getting what I'm saying to you. I mean, I don't want to do a thing today!
Alright.  We'll just sit and won't do a thing today.
Come to think of it, we'll be sitting down.  That is doing something.  I can't do that, cause I'm not doing anything today. 
Alright, how do you want to not do anything without doing a thing? Think about that, mister-I-don't-wanna-do-anything.
You're right.  Taking space and time thus making volume acquire to do a thing without doing a thing.  In order to not do a single thing, the object or a body can't exist.  
Alright, what do you suggest then? 
I suggest I'm not doing anything today other than sitting down, right here!

poem of pensee on time off

Where have you been ?
I have been waiting for your return!
You've been gone a long time, haven't you notice?!
All is all, you're here now. Glad you're here.

Have you been feeling like I have been? Feeling like there is never enough time? The sky rotates against your head. You take the bites I bite. Your soft secrets shared, I know nobody has been here before.

When I want to know you more, I cannot help but not wanting to. I know love, it makes no sense. I doubt anybody knows why that is.

The night sky brings a different feeling than the day. Kiss me and kiss me, I won't go away.

Witnessing a mountain crumble,
Chewing your chin,
Saying things you mean;
Have I done you in?
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they begun.
they kept on down the road.
the destination, no one knew
not even they.

mold it based on my desire
too early too late it wont matter
as long as i am in control
of it

pull away
and reconstruct your magnetic touch.
lay it down dont go cry
about it; release dolorous
cockamamies and attack
my reputation.
no one to hear
in a room with a view,
put a bandage on your kitty
scratch.
written in images that have no meanings
that i cant decipher
squeeze me in, wait i was never allowed.
never enough yet content that i should be.
i am happy with what i have
i want to juice it today
i just dont know if tomorrow is coming

cheeekins from davis

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tennis
the secret spot
*trader joes
home
*macy's dressing room
barnes and noble
house party
this girl

People will say anything to have attention. They will say what and who they are, but we don't listen because we want them to be what we want them to be. It all comes down to what I want versus what's expected from me.

last memoir

I wonder how your skin feels underneath the sweater I got you. Soft and as light as it can be feeling helpless without me. Do you feel like how you thought you would by now? Im not sad to see you go but Im only pretending you know.

Her visits to my mind are getting shorter by the second. I'm sure she’s moved on much easier than me. Boys drool over her shadow: her laughter does what the night does to the day.

If youre making love to her, think of the summer kisses. She’ll do you one further and leave your head pirouette. It's easy as it does it. But things aren’t clear when looking between the lines.

Dear me dear
me. I have lost my sleep
and can't recall where I
last left it, seems like
you should be here some
where. Did you leave me
or did you lose me
or did I ? Should I
begin the search for you ?
It's been fifteen days. I
became to realise

I thought this and you
thought that. I ran, you chased
you ran, I chased. forest red
to light black.
Hand over innocuous smile
playing perpetually.

Would it be alright if I came closer ?
Would it be alright if I move closer ?

You used to get it in your summer dress
rock me baby cake, gimme a kiss.

Where did you go, oh flo?
you took left to last lament lane
and you're not coming back again.